Hey, It's exasperating to be in a close relationship where everything seems to workout and be dumped one fine day as if nothing existed. Your anger, frustration, shame, confusion, helplessness and pain are perfectly valid under circumstances. Additionally i see that you have been a strong person through out your life. You are not someone who would let one failed relationship stop you from living an awesome life. Being the person you are, i am sure you have a picture of life partner who would stand by you irrespective of the situations. Your 6 years courtship I am sure was endearing and has helped both of you in multiple ways. However at this point if he cannot take the next step with you, it means that he is not strong enough at the point to face circumstances. Isn't it good that you came to know about it before marriage..?? After marriage there will be many situations where you need to work together and would you want to do it with someone who bails out at first sign of discomfort..?? Now that the relationship ended doesn't mean that it wasn't great or you were at fault somewhere. It was a big lesson for you to recognize the person who can stand with you irrespective of situations in coming days. My dear, it's natural to be emotional at the point and what I said might sound rubbish. Stay with the emotions for a while and you will emerge stronger and braver in no time. Take Care.