Your situation is quite complex because it involves brain haemorrhages & partial response to conventional medicines. You are on too many medicines. I hope there is a rationale behind prescribing them. I think you need to be evaluated thoroughly including personality & other psychological as well as neurological assessment. Treatment rationalization to be done. If medicines are not showing much response, you can try neuromodulation like rTMS & TDCS etc.
Next Steps
Consult a Psychiatrist in person & discuss in detail about your problems & treatment responses.