Hi,
I can empathize with you..but you need to provide more details about your problem..like since when you are having this problem, frequency, how you are distracting yourself, what makes you feel relaxed, your predominant mood, does distracting hurts you more,or the thoughts about someone... Additionally (even in case you provide details) visit any psychiatrist nearby you for Management of your problems in a proper way..regards
Next Steps
Consult a psychiatrist or Psychologist