Wellness Greetings to you
I appreciate you for analysing that it has not been from your birth but you have obtained it from one point of your life and you have clearly stated about it , when and from where you have actually occurred it . Now the simple part is , we have to know what have triggered you this thought. This can be from various reasons. I would highly recommend you to take a professional help to analyse the thought process and track down the particular trigger . This will make everything easy and give You a permanent solution within a short span of time.
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