I understand your concern. You seem to be suffering from depressive symptoms including being insecure, sensitive, crying, reduced energy etc. It may be due to having an emotionally unstable personality as well. More clarity is needed regarding your problem to decide on the severity of your condition. However it is manageable with appropriate treatment. Some counselling sessions and if needed medical help might be useful for you. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is available.