Hello Friend, thanks for reaching out here for help. I can understand your suitation very well. All your symptoms are interlinked and it need further evaluation to suggest you a solution. What you need immediate is a pair of ears to listen to your worries patiently and suggest you the best option to recover from this pain as soon as possible. Take a guidance of any psychology support. If you hesitate to meet f2f, then go for online counseling.
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