May be you need counselling to see the root. When we are copying others subconsciously, we lose energy and that depletion leads us to a feeling of negativity. It's like being at the bottom of dark empty well and still falling. As it is subconscious, you have to put effort to unearth the root of your energy loss, plus it and come out....like mining. Only thing is that we have to mine ourselves and for that counselling/mentoring helps, not rituals. Prayers and meditations if done by self, then they help. Prayers and havans done by others may pull us further down. Watch yourself to find yourself to find your energy. Be conscious not to copy others, not even celebrities.

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