Hi, It's an immense pain you must be going through physically as well as emotionally. It's indeed your strength & bravery which is helping you sail through this phase. It's a right decision from your end to take aid of a professional who could assist you to integrate & manage pain and also to make sense of everything that's happening with you so that you can cope optimally. You are a fighter, who has it in him to win even a tough battle like the one you are fighting. Any competent professional should be in a position to help you. Please do your research well and find a psychologist/psychiatrist/psychotherapist nearby, whom you would be comfortable with and start counseling with priority. Take Care & Wish you a speedy recovery as well as great life .