Hi dear thanks for query. I understand you are going through tough time/ emotional distress with academic and personal life. I understand you had set different goals, but due to different situations you may not be able to reach it. Is it that still you don't have the clarity about your requirements / you are not sure how to handle your situation. This is the right time you can look for experts support and guidance. You can take help of psychologist from this platform.
Next Steps
Visit psychologist through online or offline.
Health Tips
Try to share your emotions to whom you feel comfortable, being organized and working on area of weakness will help you to handle yourself better.