Hi, Hearing your story makes me feel both angry and sad. I want to commend your courage to talk about such a personal issue and seek help for your well-justified fear. It's natural in your case to project the negative image of your father onto every male member. The internalised fear from your childhood can stop you from building healthy relationships with male members. I suggest you need an outlet to talk about your fears. You also need to identify positive male role models in your life who can help break your internalised fear.