Hello Friend, . Holding on such emotional disturbance within you is not adviced. Good that you are seeking a help. you need to ventilate your emotions, feelings and concerns to someone who can listen patiently and give a neutral view about your problem. In such open discussions, you will be able see a different prepective about yourself and way you look other and possible solutions. Take a professional counselling support as a first step in solving your problems.

Feeling low, having crying spells, sleep and appetite disturbances, and difficulty in concentration and attention are some of the signs of Depression. Consult a Psychiatrist for a detailed assessment. It is likely with medication and counseling the symptoms will improve. If you are feeling suicidal or hopeless consult a Psychiatrist immediately.

Please contact me at the earliest.... There are ways and means to overcome this issue... All the best... Take care...