I dont know what i m saying half of the time about things i dont remember it i forgot it easily than i dont know maybe i lie or what i have also tried to suicide and i just lie about things so frequently tht i myself dont remember like how when i was in 9 th grade i got a panic attack or maybe a bp fluctuation i dont remember all i remember is people rubbing my feet and my hands and my teachers yelling dont let her hands or feets go cold i dont remember much about most of the times my head has been hurting for 2 or 3 years now and it hurts like hell.