I understand your concern. You would require a detailed psychiatric evaluation to find out the reason for your problem. It is unclear from the information provided whether there was a lack of a secure attachment for you in your family. However it is easily manageable with appropriate treatment. Some counselling and therapy sessions might be useful for you. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is also available.