It's OK it will take time to healbut learn to manage your emotions by seeking help of a counselor Consult me or any psychologist for therapy All the best

Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Relationships issues will go through such phase and understanding gaps. In facts it's an opportunity accept the reality. Don't try to park your happiness in life in  one basket. I am sure you want to come out of this pain. Then take a counseling help to learn the ways to handle your emotions and focus on other priorities in life. Reach me online for further assistance.

Seek a professional support. Consult a psychologist.