Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here . I can understand your suitation. Your anxiety and depression is causing you all these troubles and negative thoughts. So better try and figure out the root cause for your anxiety or depression. It could be due over thinking about anything from your career, relationships, family, friends, unhealth etc. Suggest you to take some psychological support to figure out the actual reasons and possible solution to recover soon.
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