Hi, Break up can be very stressful, added to this covid 19 situation, it can be more stressful, this can lead to anxiety and depressive episodes Sometimes anxiety may not be overtly seen, but experienced as general discomfort, lack of interest and motivation in the things which were earlier easy and happier to do, irritability, body pains, sleep disturbances, poor appetite. Hence need to address these as early as possible. How to address the break up issues. Need to discover why you are feeling bad and guilty. There are different reasons one might feel guilty after break-up Feel bad about ending things because the the other did not want to break up. Maybe you are regretting your decision to leave and thinking about how you didn't try hard enough to make things work. The following might help you to overcome feeling bad and guilt and move on Make a firm decision about your breakup and your feelings for your ex Get rid of breakup guilt by acknowledging that you were honest and direct when you ended the relationship Remind yourself of the reasons you broke up with her. Think about your ex's limitations and bad habits. Think of the breakup as a favor to your ex Be practical-the relationship just wasn't meant to be Stop feeling guilty by realising that your ex will move on Be kind to yourself-relationships are a two-way street. Think of all the sacrifices you made before deciding to end the relationship Think of your breakup guilt as a natural human reaction-because it is. Rise above this feeling by being aware that this guilt is difficult to avoid and you must actively move on by learning from your past mistakes taking responsibility for your actions, and learning to forgive yourself

For suicidal thoughts, kindly see a psychiatrist or psychologist in person that will be helpful. As mentioned it’s all about break up and this is first time u facing such difficulty, you might be more serious this time hence, having such a phase post break up and that’s ok as any relationship if gets disturbed individuals do get hurt at point of times.

Try for counselling

Suicidal ideation is a psychiatric emergency. Even though you may have a reason to get depressed, it is still a disorder to get this depressed.Break in relationships do come with a lot of mental pain.But if the agony is to the extent you have described, it warrants psychiatric intervention.

What you are going through is called adjustment disorder.  It is very common to have feelings of low mood and other symptoms of depression during this phase. But having suicidal thoughts cannot be taken lightly and I recommend you immediately contact your family or a doctor.