Hi. I've been subject to sexual misbehavior in childhood (both, homo and hetero) done by my Lambada servants. Age was around 4. Therefore there's a serious trouble for me in understanding sex today as a means of procreation. Rather, I tend to look at it as a male's violence on a female. I've achieved a good deal of breakthrough in this by constant community support. Still, I'm subject to social underprevilage by some dominating classes, as well as well-read suppressed classes, both of which I avoid. I also developed an excessive sexual fantasy as a result. Kindly suggest a solution. Thanks :)