Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation. Holding on such emotional issues and negativity is not adviced. You need to ventilate this to someone who really cares about you like friends or family members. If you hesitate to share with them, then take a professional help from psychology counselor, who can help you to figure out the reason for your emotional imbalance and recommendation. Feel free to reach out to me online for further evaluation and counseling.

Feeling low, having crying spells, sleep and appetite disturbances, and difficulty in concentration and attention are some of the signs of Depression. Consult a Psychiatrist for a detailed assessment. It is likely with medication and counseling the symptoms will improve. If you are feeling suicidal or hopeless consult a Psychiatrist immediately.