I cant understand what do u want.
I think u are suffering from Depression. But i cant understand ur treatment is started or not.
To handle depression with medicine is not enough ,u need proper mental health management or counselling.
To handle stress, anxiety, everyday tension is an art.To learn those u must consult psychologist online or offline.
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