Hi Mam, im sorry to learn about this. It must be awful situation for you. There are two things first is you could be having post partum depression and second the negative memory of past has made a mark on you and you are not able to overcome it which is very necessary to lead a healthy life. Thank you for seeking help. More than any medicine you need to discuss about your concerns, whats troubling you and gain an insight understanding about it to bring about change with a mental health professional consult with me or any psychologist for counseling & therapy. connect with me through practo app Talk it out all the best more power to you.

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Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation. At this point, first thing you need to do is ventilate your feelings, emotions and concerns to someone to destress yourself . When you are emotionally disturbed and confuse about the next steps, don't hesitate to ask for help. Take a professional marriage counselling help to ventilate and also discuss your problem openly as you can't mention many things here. I am sure you such open discussions you will able to get a different perspective about yourself and also about the problem you are going through. Surely you will find suitable solution to overcome.

Dear, I suggest you to consult a psychologist cum. MARRIAGE COUNSELOR immediately.