I understand what you are saying, all you need to do is talk to a psychologist. Professional help can help you in alleviating your symptoms. A detailed analysis and appropriate psychotherapy will help you get to a healthy mental status.
Life can get overwhelming and its completelt natural, therapy can help you identify the sources of your unhappiness and hopelessness and you can work around it.
Next Steps
You can book an appointment through Practo , text and audio consultation is also available.