Hello Abhishek. I understand your situation totally . It's unfortunate to have had series of losses. But that life . Probably you need an external intervention into your issues to guide you. It's great that your friend helped you a lot in a dark phase . Now if you feel lost again and you feel the need to get some help , don't hesitate to take professional help . Meet a Psychologist. Discuss your issues . You need to feel peace first and then plan your future life . Since you have scatters thoughts , you are finding it Difficult to deal with them at a time .
Next Steps
Don't delay . Meet a psychologist or atleast take online Skype or call sessions. There is no harm in taking help when you need it .
Health Tips
Start having lot of water , walk atleast for 20 min everyday without music and indulge into hobbies that you like . 8 hours sleep is a good medicine to mental distress . Do not skip meals or overdo junk food or sweets .