Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. It's better to address such emotional disturbance as soon as possible for the benefit of your child. Sometimes your postpartum stress  could trigger such thoughts and behaviors in you which is affecting others. Advice you to take a counseling support in such suitations to figure out the the way to handle the suitation better and also identify the gaps between both of you to find a solution that can help to bring back the care and love from your husband.