I'm so lonely that I'm considering going to work 7 days a week so I don't have to stay home. Putting myself in social situations doesn't seem to help because unless I drink I can almost never bring myself to talk to anyone first, and even then I barely do. I just don't feel like I fit into society unless it's with really messed up people, and I sometimes try to turn to them when I'm desperately lonely. I think I might even be comfortable with my loneliness and depression although I desire more.