Hii dear, as can be noticed you are not doing well. After reading your problem i can sense you have gone through something which has broken you from inside and also have hampered the trust in you for your friends and family. But let me tell you one thing, this happens with each and every person on this earth. Once in a while we get depressed for something or the other, But, this makes us stronger day by day. We become mentally and emotionally strong. And this help us in our later life. The only thing I would suggest you is to TALK. Rather than seeking help elsewhere, take help from your parents, especially your mother. Trust me . It would be the best advice on earth. Nothing can replace your family ever. You have nothing to lose, why not give it a try. Take care & All the best .

Loss of interest, decreased concentration and attention, feeling low and disturbed sleep or appetite are some of the signs of depression. Consult a psychiatrist who will assess you in detail. If you are feeling suicidal or hopeless, seek professional help immediately.