I had troubled childhood and it reflects on my current relationships and general behaviour. I am too gullible, have commitment issues, abandonment issues! I try to get over things and try to live normal life but somehow I always find myself in the middle of a mess!! My family is too protective and never let me do whatever I want. They want me to have an arranged marriage. But I honestly don't trust their choice as they fail to understand me in the first place! Also, I like someone but I have no commitment from that person and it will take a year for a confirmed commitment, considering the families involved. Along with this, I am facing career and health issues. I can't sleep at night. I keep getting same wired dreams over and over. I frequent palpitations, and I get startled and scared all the time. Paranoid, overthinking all the time. Occasional Nausea, vomiting, loss of appetite and acidity issues. I am very frustrated with life overall and most of the mornings I wish I was dead!