Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help. Such emotional disturbance will induce negative thoughts. Don't allow it to take control. Take a professional help. It's just like any other physical illness and can be treated through counseling session and few lifestyle changes. If your suicidal or self harming thought are very intensive, pls immediately go nearby hospital and consult a psychiatrist..

Hello dear The above mentioned symptoms are indicative of depressive mood. Try consulting a clinical psychologist or a psychiatrist for proper diagnosis and treatment. Share your thoughts and feelings with someone close in the family and consult a mental health professional.