Hello, firstly I want to say that you are very lucky because you got this beautiful life as a gift of God so don't think about to suicide attempt. Life is very precious and so that you. These all are the symptoms of depression. I can sense from your description of problem that something wrong between you and your husband or some big change happen in your life, only after this all these changes are coming to your life. Share your feeling with someone whom you trusted a lot or took counseling from a professional and learn how to manage it.