We all need one or the other engagement in our life to shape it the way we like. Career we chose ought to be the best possible engagement for you considering different aspects of your life. I see that you have had a mismatch in your stint so far, where in what you wanted did not keep you for long and what chose you, did not fancy you much. I am glad that you are a strong person who did not judge yourself based on your success or failure and are looking forward to go with best possible option right now. What you need to do at present is to locate that career which brings out your best and see how you can make your way through it after considering every other factors of your life which affects you in one way or the other. A psychologist, Counselor or Career Coach should be in a position to assist you here. All the Best. Go for it.