Hi. Calm down and relax for a while. You are giving detailed history. So ,you're aware about core of your present distress. You know there are thousands of young men and women who are still hunting for their life partner in this valentine wk! You're so lucky that you are blessed by God. People are away from fulfilling their basic needs like job and marriage in India. You must also see this aspect. Father's personality may not be reflected in your husband. So don't see from this perspective.  Engage yourself in work more. Then slowly allot time to your couple life. Individual differences will be there so don't expect that like your students every family member will listen to you! Decorate your new house in your way. Take photos and share with others. Segregate career from personal life. Bring closeness, softness and comfort in married life

Dear human, thank you for sharing and reaching out. I completely understand that you're facing few challenges in life which is difficult to manage. It must have been difficult for you to share this, I appreciate you for doing so. Given the COVID circumstances, almost everybody was challenged in terms of their mental and physical health and you being unable to find motivation to take care of yourself is totally valid and understandable. You've mentioned that you were not happy with your life before/during your marriage and even after marriage. This could be due to many reasons like stress, depression, anxiety, frustration, anger and the underlying factors for these could be anything, for example your father's abusive behavior or body image issues due to his behavior, of which only you would be aware of. And these issues could be manifested in many ways like unhappiness/dissatisfaction with life, or troubles with your spouse and many more. It is pertinent that you seek therapy, to identify the possible reasons for your issues, acknowledge it and to start working on it in a healthy manner. Both individual and couples therapy would help to work on your internal conflicts and also to make your partner understand that you're undergoing certain things in life. Do remember that while you're facing these troubles, your partner would be experiencing something different which you wouldn't be aware of.

Hello, it's only reasonable that you have such emotional difficulties. With the constant body shaming, invalidation, and now a significant change like marriage, you must be finding it difficult to cope. Your irritability, low mood and unwillingness to do anything can be managed through therapy.

You seem to be going through adjustment disorder . It is a temporary phase, if you work on your self. Counselor will empower you to do the same with various techniques in the session. Though you need to give more information to get help. As this is too little for us. We need to explore and help understand the issue and then correct treatment or support.

Before taking any hasty decisions, I suggest you to seek a professional support to overcome this issue.. I suggest you to consult a psychological Counselor for a therapy..

Looks like you are introvert person and having less social life - my guess , and there is no one where you can open-up or talk. You are a teacher and that way independent. Actually description is short - your childhood, before marriage life (as it is love marriage) and why you said "Yes" when you were not happy to go for it - all these things needs to be studied. May be this Corona period and working from home impacted you like lot of other people and looks like this bad patch will end soon as schools are starting - you have to increase hopes inside you by keeping some objectives.

Hello..I am getting a picture here that you are facing with multiple issues at the same time.I am sorry to hear that you are facing all these difficulties on emotional,physical and cognitive level.Its not at all your fault and you had enough of it..It’s time to stand for yourself and do what it takes to be happy and lead a peaceful life.It seems you are notable to have a clear picture of what is that you want from your life because of the abusive childhood and this is leading to confusion in your married life as well.Please do not make any decision in any hurry,as you have mentioned yours is a love marriage,then both of you must be knowing each other from quite long time? Isn’t it?I would suggest you to seek professional support ,it will help you in providing clarity in many aspects and will help you in developing short term + long term Vision.Good luck and take care.