I understand your predicament and would like to make a few suggestions that might help you. I want you to know that with awareness of how the mind works and how thoughts are generated, you will get better at dealing with them. Today, the mind is fixated on something. Tomorrow it could be obsessed about another person/event/topic. Understanding the nature of the mind and how thoughts are generated will help you deal with them. The nature of the Mind, which in simple terms we experience as thoughts, is such that, it will keep shifting its focus from one object/topic/event to another. Ii always needs something to hold on to. Another important characteristic of the Mind is this - You will either have thoughts about the past or the future. This will keep alternating. Try thinking about the present moment - you will see that the Mind and 'Now' can never coexist. The Mind has 3 states in general. Sometimes, you may find yourself having very positive, inspiring thoughts. During other times, you may find yourself very emotional, or all charged for action. Whereas during other times, you may feel very lethargic, dull or lazy. These states will keep alternating. Having understood the nature of the mind, the first step towards mental health is to become aware of your thoughts. Learning to be an observer of your thoughts, learning to observe them from a distance like clouds passing in the sky. The next step is knowing that you have the power to choose which thought you wish to focus on and act on and exercising that power. With practice, you will have better mastery over this process. Having thoughts about one being worthless and hopeless about life in general is also something that plagues everybody from time to time. Trust me, even if everything was perfect, you will still find some shortcomings somewhere and brood about it. Tension or anxiety is a physiological response which is again part of being human. It is normal to have such thoughts about any situation. As mentioned above, with practice, you will learn to focus and entertain only those thoughts are healthy enough to be acted upon. Whenever you feel overwhelmed by thoughts, just bring your focus back to your breath and take a few relaxing breaths. You will automatically be able to focus on the task at hand and do what is required. Whatever you feed your mind through your sense organs will be replayed to you as thoughts. Be conscious of this. Take care of the content you feed your mind - the kind of books you read, the websites you visit, the kind of music you listen to, the kind of food you eat, the kind of company you keep ( "You are an average of five people you spend most of your time with" ) Ask yourself : Where would I like to see myself ten years from now? What should I do today to reach there ten years from now? What would I do if I knew I wouldn't fail? What would I do if I weren't afraid? No matter how impossible the answers might seem, I want you to know that you can and will make them possible. Take the first step. The rest will follow. A beautiful future awaits you. Take ownership of every time, take responsibility for it and confidently work towards your dreams and aspirations. One day you will thank these dark moments for being the fuel for your success. Exercise daily and make sure you eat healthy. Have faith in yourself. You are capable of dealing with this. You are going to do just fine. Take care.

Thankyou for Sharing, I appreciate that you are approaching help from professionals. What you have shared based on that I suggest you to go for one on one session with Psychologist to help you best.

Hello Practo user, Feeling a bit upset at being criticized or not being appreciated for our efforts is quite a common response. But if these everyday incidences are causing you to cry relentlessly, experience a lot of emotional pain and feel lonely in life, I think there might be involvement of some deep beliefs that you have developed over the years regarding the world, yourself and the value you may hold in your loved one's life. It would be a good idea to identify and work on those to help you live a happier and more fulfilling life. You could consult a clinical psychologist to help you along this way gently. Next step: Consult a clinical psychologist Helpful tips: Writing 3 good things about the day or 3 things that made you feel happy. These things can be something as small as your favourite food or finding your fav fruit in the market or something as big as a job opportunity or appreciation by someone, etc. Some 20-30 minutes of physical activity would also really help you

Hello dear I appreciate your courage in looking for support and help to your situation. It's good that you understood reasons foryour emotional dysfunction. I am sorry for your childhood incidence, the pain is reflecting in negative emotions. It is required for you to work on emotions and thoughts. Understand your self requirements, self introspection, practice relaxation therapy, and know your goals, this thing could help to explore your self give clarity to deal with circumstances.

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