Dear,
Please don't do any such self harming acts. I can understand how difficult it might be for you, but then u need to be strong.
Next Steps
Please visit ur ART centre and talk to ur counselor. Subsequently visit a psychiatrist soon.
Health Tips
Try to discuss ur troubles with ur family members or if you have any trust worthy friend, u should share ur feelings with them.
Meet people having ur condition, talk to them. You will start feeling better in company of people having ur condition.