Young lady your symptoms suggest some underlying depression.
Kindly visit a psychiatrist.
There are so many fields of career you can do well in.
You can visit a career counsellor.
You may get some answer's what your searching for.
Next Steps
visit a psychiatrist
Pls confide in your parents or grand parents or elder siblings.
Health Tips
you are young. there are many opportunities for u and choices are many.
Pls do not get negative about the drops. these drops won't matter later on.