this platform is not suitable for ur question. But you are too young n I can understand the  conflict in your mind by which you have send a question here. First of all don't  get frustrated  at this point. There are so many ways to behind ur frustration so leave this first.discuss with your parents, elders and of course the teachers.they will guide you better.listen to your inner voice. Be optimistic always. Best wishes. Kp smiling. good luck young boy.