Life purpose is something which is not fixed & evolves as you know more about yourself and the world in combination with your experiencing of yourself & the world. Having said this, i have noticed that you are a brilliant person who is capable of excelling at anything you take up however you have started to doubt & question your current choice of profession hence distracting yourself from materializing it. I also see that you are keen on filmmaking. Excellent. What is filmmaking after all..?? A craft created by materializing your ideas, imagination & experiences. It's an end to end process which merges your inner world & presentation of the same to the outer world in a meaningful way. For film making you need to be creative, determined & perseverant. You are creative. Go ahead in a determined way & build the perseverance by achieving your current goal of clearing CA. Gain this valuable experience along with the confidence & monetary benefits which naturally would accompany your achieving the goal. Once you achieve what you have already taken up, you shall be up for the next step. Once you are a CA, who would stop you from learning or experimenting with the film making..?? A simple career counseling at that point can through some more light on making the next decision. You might have 101 contrasting dreams waiting to be lived however a materializer takes up one at a time & ensures for it to be a reality before embracing the next. After all life is rich & long, if you really use it productively. If you still are in a dilemma, take that bold step of talking to your dad about the need for clarity with your performance at finals. A dad who is so ambitious and proud of his son's achievement shall understand the need to sort out anything that is going wrong with finals. Consult a professional and gain further clarity. Stop avoiding friends though they do not seem to be understanding or supportive because you need them in multiple ways to sustain. Include some physical activity in your routine along with studies if it isn't there presently. I am sure you'll make it through this phase & achieve everything you deserve. Take Care.

Hi, from your detailed description it seems you may be suffering from Depression. Please consult a Psychiatrist at the earliest. It is a treatable condition and you can improve greatly with mild medication . Do follow it up with counseling as your thinking pattern needs to change. Sometimes it is difficult on our own to have clarity about life and our purpose in it. With counseling you can achieve that. Once there is change in perception everything will become crystal clear and you can then lead a fulfilling and meaningful life that you love. Do practice Yoga, eat healthy and get adequate sleep daily. Also, exercise regularly. If money is a concern you can visit a government hospital. Hope this helps, All the Best!