well avoidin moths cn work to an extent..bt d current situation ur describing is hampering your mobility and haulting ur life..
phobia cn lead to secondary depression and anxiety symptoms..
it cn b treated ..may not go away completely but u cn live comfortably..co-exist..
der is a role of medications which will bring down ur anxiety levels..and den therapy in d form of graded xposure or imagery cn b done..
der hv been many cases n ppl benefit from d combination of these two treatments..
also..shock exposure is unnecessary..
Next Steps
kindly seek a psychiatrists help
Health Tips
do not google ur symptoms and d treatment options..