I am irritated almost all the times . I don't even remember when I was happy the last time. I try a lot to divert myself and be happy but I am unable to be happy. I am getting irritable and venge out my anger on my children, husband and mother in law. I feel guilty for doing so all the time.  I am getting very out of control. I am not willing to live anymore. I feel like ending up my life. Very disappointed with the every aspect of life. I feel I have no relation which is good.every relation is strained. There's nothing in life which is making me happy