Suicide is not a solution for problems. It is a painful consequence and complication of Depressive Illness. Depressive illness is very much a treatable illness. Suicidal thought is like chest pain for heart disease where a person immediately goes to a cardiologist or ER for treatment because he wants to live where the heart disease is trying to kill him. Likewise you have expressed that you want to live but depressive illness is trying to kill you by giving suicidal thoughts. WHO has declared this year theme as Depression, Let's Talk campaign.
Next Steps
Immediately go to any hospital with Emergency services and get admitted for tonight. Let them refer to a psychiatrist ASAP.
Health Tips
Share your thoughts now with your family, wife or parents or siblings or friends or even neighbours. Save yourself from this dreadful disease which can be treated easily.