Gay is not a problem.Problem is, u accept it or not.U must respect ur self and walk forward.Today gender or sex is not the issue.Issue is what is ur field of work.
Go through ur study,ur passion.Dont bother for anyone.
U became unconscious when u see some pictures, these needs total discussion with a psychologist for better positive way.
Health Tips
for overall health
1.sleep 8 hrs at night.
2.avoid too much social media.
3.avoid too much use of mobile pc laptop.
4.avoid mobile pc 1hr before sleep.
5.before sleep may hear good music,or read a good book or can watch a good movie.
6.workout daily or regular morning walk or join gym.
7.Share ur thoughts with ur parents or good friends.
8.Concentrate on ur work,study,passion, hobby.
9.Maintain proper diet.
10.Take proper protein supplement and some time multivitamines.