I've been hoping and searching for a free counselor but I can't find any. I'm still a student and financially dependent. I've been having the usual scary questions I can't get rid of, why are we here, what goes after death, and the every day fear that someone in my family might be gone and where do I find them when it's my turn to die, the fear I feel when I imagine forever because it's endless, what happens next? I feel immobilized, I'm scared. Pls help me, I just want to be the old me again.