Hi thanks for reaching out. I can understand your emotional disturbance, problems arise in life, we need to find out how we can handle/ face it with confidence. everybody has the potency to handle it in better way. the same for you. Right now you need a person whom you can trust and share your feelings. kindly visit to any counsellor or psychologist near your place definitely they will help you with the therapy / proper treatment. Divert your mind with some hobbies or entertainment activities. Don't let your weakness overtake your strengths. take care and stay positive.

I can understand  the irrit8of rejection. Still life is all about how to handle different  people and situations. So do consult a Psychologist in ur city and understand about yourself.

A heartbreak brings in lot of pain which seems literally unbearable at the point. When you would have proposed to him, you might have been pretty sure that you are to him the way he is to you in the span of last 6 months. Rejection in any way is hard to bear & gets harder when it comes from someone close to your heart. You are overwhelmed with emotions currently, hence are helpless & devaluing yourself leading to suicidal tendencies. At this point you primarily need to express your emotions as long as they last, to a trustworthy & non judgemental person. Once you are out of the rush of emotions you shall be in a position to understand the dynamics of that relationship & let go of the resentment. This shall also lead to a huge learning if you can reach second stage anytime. You my dear are a strong & committed person who had the courage to take control of situation & propose to your loved one when you saw something real. This quality shall help you overcome any hurdle in the path. Stay strong & consult a professional if the suicidal tendency continues. Take Care.