Don't worry ! Believe me, it's seems to be difficult initially but as time passes you will start learning things and then it will be very easy for you, take help from your friends and dont think that parents are pushing you, they are thinking for your bright future, forget about what other people think about you other than your parents because there is no point in disturbing our life with other people's thoughts.. live life on your own.. Don't be weak.. Don't give up easily ! I know you can do it ! Good luck...