I am a 31 year old female. I live alone at Surat for work. I have always been very good in academics but never had what I deserved in my career. I blame myself for that. Never was passionate enough for that until recently. Now I have a good job. I have had many friends in my life. But lately I have shunned everybody out of my life. I don't even talk to people at work. I don't go out ever. I don't feel like doing any of it. But I do miss my old life and my friends. I have had a few relationships in my past. I am in one right now. I have reached the age where my family wants me to get married. Most of my friends are married too. But the one I love doesn't want marriage. Also, his parents are not very happy with me as I am from a totally different culture and background. He however says that he doesn't want to lose me and is trying to convince his parents. He can't give me his words and has said that I am free and my family can search for a groom for me. I feel so undesirable for that