Situational Depression. Have been.

Courage, boldness, strength of intentions etc. are the traits you enhanced within yourself, when you decided to come out of the toxic relationship, you were in. That doesn't make you a courageous, bold & strong person all the time. You shall have your moments of fear, confusion & uncertainty. Though experience was toxic, it was personal to you hence a part of your inner world as for now. You are to begin again. At this point, though there is a hope for a better life, there also is a fear of letting go of a past, which though was traumatic was real & stable. At this point, it's all uncertainty in a package of hope. It naturally leads to mixed emotions hence inflated fear within you. Your hesitation to let go of your past though it was unbearable is natural because that's also your precious possession. The people who treated you badly need not be part of your life anymore however they still stay with you as memories. You shall be alright if you understand the way your past has shaped you so far & make sense of all experiences so that you still carry the lessons while letting go of toxicity of the situations you faced. Congratulations for the fight you have been fighting with yourself & the world, though are scared as hell inside. Good Luck.