MULTIPLE DRUG ABUSE. , since last 8yrs,

Need help with quitting cigarettes, marijuana, opium, prescription opiods, benzodiazipines,etc etc social anxiety, depression, loneliness, mental trauma, mood swings, violent thoughts, shivers, frustration, communication, self medication , memory loss, lack of interest to do anything , no friends , parents given up on me, withdrawls, hallucinations, physical weakness, mentally unstable, irrational, overdose , isolated , unable to carry out simple tasks , highly substance dependent to eat sleep wake up , think etc. blank thoughts , unable to cope with reality , side effects , no one to understand me , perhaps suicidal , unmotivated , worried , going insane , had consulted psychiatrists previously who didn't understand the problem and made it more worse , trust issues , insomnia , behavioral problem , emotionally unstable, anger , self harm , guilt , remorse , absent minded . unable to finance an actual consultation, need to discuss with someone , confused , paranoid , since last 8yrs,