I don't know. Pls somebody help.

Our thoughts and feelings control us more than we are aware of. Most of us would have felt lonely or tired at one time or the other. When we are in that mood, we would lack motivation to engage in anything constructive and come out of the darker mood. Your dark make up and suicidal thoughts tell me that there is a side to you which is suffering and needs to be heard and consoled however there also is another side which is motivated and strong enough to seek help. That side is trusting enough to believe that there is help and you deserve to be energetic, loved and cared for. You would need to work on strengthening the side of you that is all beautiful and capable of happiness and understand the other side which is making you weak. I would want you to take one small initiative every day and observe the way it affects both sides of you. I also would suggest you to engage in any physical activity like Exercise or walking to feel more energetic. If you do not get better in a week, do consult a psychologist/ psychiatrist who would help you to shape your life in the way you want. Take Care & Love Yourself, Best, Sneha Bhat