Dipression, Drugs. Help for my mood.

Hi, well firstly thanks for sharing the details of your situation; I can understand how difficult and conflicted you must feel when it comes to choosing either your lady love or your parents. How sure are you about decision of marrying this woman? Are you sure you can spend the rest of your life with her? Do you think she will blend with your family?(due to different religion) Do you think she will like your parents and make efforts to maintain peace and harmony in the family? Do you think she will have a bigger heart and let go the small issues that might crop up with your family? If the answer to all these questions is yes, then you should go ahead and marry her as you can't afford ruining your life by marrying someone else. You will neither do justice to the other person nor your parents or even your current lady love. If your parents see how truly happy you are they will forgive you eventually. However, if you are unsure of the above questions then think it through long and hard as it won't be worth putting your family through so much pain. Put the religion aside and look at it objectively and logically by understanding the person. And your time to decide as clearly you seem to be under the influence of marijuana most of the time and that is not healthy or wise. You should go see a counselor and talk about this entire situation. Marijuana is an escapism which you have chosen but your daily use can lead to addiction soon. Hence, quit it now while the time is right and learn to face the reality. You should be strong enough to accept situations so that you can resolve it eventually.