It seems that death is the ultimate reality of life, so why live? I am clever student upto 10th I can't think cont concentration no motivation for study feeling like memory loss I have vision problems feeling like new in world irrational fears I can't cry even I am sad I do not have feelings emotions feeling less sensetion less responce me to much torched mom dad from 2 years this time feeling fully socially disconnected also have po*n habit this feelings from 4months so disturbed in past I can't go outdoor