I'm a 34 year old divorced woman with no kids.. My hubby left me instead of me begging to him a thousand times.. My family gave me shelter and I was trying to heal.. My mother is the best part of my life and only person who loves me.. She is currently diagnosed with lung cancer and she's 69 years old.. I'm scared to death of losing her and my whole body feels lethargic and my mind feels numb, I don't feel like talking or living.. How do I manage this fear? What if something happens to her? I feel like I'll die.. I also feel like ending this pain and trauma by suicide but the fear of suffering physical pain stops me everytime.. Please help me 🙏 I want to live with my mother