Greetings, sorry about the stress. It is understandable you are under stress but the reason why you have stress could not be read as I couldn't read the language but suicidal thoughts are frequent is what I understood from your description.
Not to worry life has surprises for us and considering your age you have a long way to go and problems will come and go away, you are going to live only once, so stay calm. Talk to your friends or someone who you can trust. Try not to find solutions now, first calm yourself, it will take time to calm yourself but consider that. As time passes by you will understand the situation.
Next Steps
try to engage in hobbies you like the most, kind of divert yourself and this will help. if feeling like no one is there for you, then you are a strong person the world needs individuals like you, so forgot about suicidal thoughts and move on, forgot about the issue. speak to people you trust the most or just let go and time will let you know the answer
Health Tips
if you feel you still need support let me know will assist.